I've been feeling pretty emotional lately. My life is now out of balance and I really don't know what to do anymore. I don't even know if this is going to be a long or short post. I'll let my words take me away. I cry too much. I love too much. I really can't stop these feelings. I wake up at 2am every day because I miss him too much. But he's too far away for me to smell his scent, too far away for me to touch his warm skin, and too far away for him to put me back to sleep with his warmth. So I have to settle for my teddy bear, Bae. I hug Bae tightly and put my head under his muzzle, seeking comfort. But of course I didn't find any. So all I have to do is stare wide-eyed at the white ceiling waiting for tiredness to overwhelm me. When I wake up from my light sleep every morning, I shiver because of the cold. Bae's cotton body can't keep me warm. I want "his" body heat to radiate towards me. I spend half a day with my usual routine. 3pm is the time I miss it the most after 2am. I wonder if he's eating well. I wonder what...